Letter to My Future Partner: Goodnight — #1

Photo by Allison Melnik Photography

Hi. It’s wild to think that you’re on the planet already. Like, you actually do exist, right now, as I’m writing this. That’s a wild concept. Cause now it feels like this energy I’m putting into this is actually going somewhere. 

And to be honest, it’s scary to think it’s ending up all the way to you. There’s still some fear, for sure. Sometimes I think I need to be perfect before I can be in a relationship with you. I know that’s not true. I’m just tired.

I hope you like napping like I do. Or– if you like cooking! Omg, if you like cooking, and you cook while I take a nap, I think that’s all we’ll need. Because I will wake up with such appreciation and gratitude and shower it all upon you. If you’re having a bad day or feeling down about yourself, just make me food while I’m sleeping and I’ll make sure you know EXACTLY what type of rockstar you are when I wake up. 

…this all sounds rather transactional, doesn’t it?

I swear there’s more to it that I wanted to write to you. I’m just tired right now. And I know that when I wake up I’m going to be hungry. And then I was thinking of you in writing this letter. So that’s the first thing that came to mind.

Which I know isn’t everything.

But maybe that’s the bigger message of this letter–that when I don't sleep, I don't think clearly. I’m all over the place. I’m a toddler on the verge of a mental breakdown if I don’t get my 8-9 hours. I know, it’s sad, but I own it. No shame. I’ve discovered what I need to be at my best, and sleep is part of it. 

So, okay. That’s lesson one about me, I guess.

I hope you have a good night. Although, I know you’re alive, but I have no idea what side of the world you’re on. So maybe you’re just now waking up?…Which actually makes this opposite sleeping and cooking schedule idea work even better…

Just kidding!! 

Goodnight, I’m going to bed. Or, good morning? Have a good breakfast! (Maybe leave me some leftovers?)